Posts tagged #Matters Of The Heart

sector (n).

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Our hearts have chambers,
as if the creator knew
we couldn’t take it
all at once,
so much of life arriving and
leaving at
any given time.

Delight and sorrow both,
they are too much and too
substantive to not have
some way of filtering them
into bouts and waves.

I can only take in small increments
the great mystery that
brought us together.

I can only take in small increments
the simple fact that
we sleep in different rooms.

the word project recap part one: matters of the heart.

8591ccc2792cf31be75e09472da6317bI've been a little preoccupied in my little corner of the world - I started school a few weeks ago and I'm still getting used to the new routine (or rather, getting used to having no time at all). Also, and more specifically, I feel in many ways I am in a cloud of my own thoughts; there is lots going on up there but I haven't quite been able to put it into words for all of you, hence the radio silence. I've found myself going into the archives of my little blog, looking for clues, remembering what I was going through or thinking about when I wrote different entries, surprised (and pleased!) to see such movement in my writing and also in my thinking; the things that used to encompass me maybe not so heavy these days.

I thought I'd do a few roundups in the meantime while I sort myself out, of different themes I've seen present themselves. First up, Matters Of The Heart. Because that's what this whole year keeps circling back to. Probably still more on the heart to come.

vital signs (n). "In this time I have realized that I am so slow to give my heart concern. This is a metaphor, and it is also not a metaphor. It is the most important thing we could ever learn to do."

palpable (adj). "I want few things, but they are all unlikely [to make manifest my songs, my writing, your heart, to summarize]. And I am wondering if that makes me irresponsible to go after one or most of them."

ventricular (adj). "The heart wants what it wants, and it manifests with such funny persistence."

tachycardia (n). "It has shown me that its voice is one to trust, always, always. In all things, the heart is fighting to keep us alive."

Thanks, as always, for visiting, and for cheering me on. It honestly makes my whole world.

xo.

vital signs (n).

39965eac17d8dcbc35a0838ce6f8e8caLately, my heart has been swelling, even unlike before. It is demanding my full attention - ordering is more like it, with mandates and signage, trumpets, a fanfare. Neon flares like three am road checks when you're just trying to get home. The pure bright sound of a fussy babe waking you from a deep sleep, screaming to be fed. A drafty window in the dead of winter, letting all the frost in. It all started as a subtle hum, and now it is chaos, impairing me from dealing with anything else until this is all in order. In this time I have realized that I am so slow to give my heart concern. This is a metaphor, and it is also not a metaphor. It is the most important thing we could ever learn to do.

tachycardia (n).

63045aaebe1d7a981fe342ee63e5d812The heart is a wondrous, mighty thing. It won't stop telling us what we need to hear. It keeps echoing. It keeps returning to the same thing. And this has been a season of becoming well-versed in all matters of my heart. It has had funny ways of getting my attention. In its rushing it has shown me that I need to slow on down and not tire myself out. Its racing has shown me that not all things need to be chased. Its insistent pounding has offered moments where there is nothing else in the world except what is happening right at that very second. It has shown me how to give my undivided attention to the present. It has shown me how to calm myself down, all by myself. It has shown me how weary one gets when it ignores the heartsong.

It has shown me that its voice is one to trust, always, always. In all things, the heart is fighting to keep us alive.