embrace (v).

I won't hug you anymore
because
I am holding myself in
and holding myself back
because you could hold me
but you won't hold
my heart; you
avoid it like
one avoids
reaching for
a cast iron pan
straight off of the stove. 

I won't hug you
and you won't reach for me
so we don't hug
but you hold me
in the palm of your hand.