quandary (n).

What am I supposed to do
with this clanging heart of mine
like pans thrown down the stairs
clumsy and loud on the way down
and probably waking the neighbours

What is it like, tell me
to carry on like you do
private in your thoughts and preferences
a softness in the weight of your resolve
you quiet your feelings like you're quiet when you leave for work.

What are we going to do
when my care drowns you like a hurricane
and your distance feels like winter
and we can't sit next to each other
and we can't look away