contrary (adj).

b0f4c41dff9deb5fab0195b7bcdc8714Herein lies the problem: you do everything in your power to divert from all that is vulnerable or uncomfortable, uncertain or painful or sad, but all of those things are what I draw from to make art, all bloody and open and fresh, and sometimes sort of ugly. I go in close to get a better look at it, and you flee.